brian buta

SINGLES 2009

Undercover

Follow me down a hill into the shade.  Look at me when I take your hand.  Think of me when the sun breaks through the leaves.  Think of me if I don’t come back.  And I don’t believe we need this distance in between.  Someday we’ll be back underneath the trees.  Lay with me for an afternoon.  Take from me just this tiny ring.  Follow me when I walk into the stream.  Cover when I can’t come back.  I don’t believe we need this distance in between.  Someday we’ll be back underneath the trees.

In Plain Sight

I saw you walking slowly, follow after him.  Just behind you, sun setting.  Shadows drag out just like lies.  Out of your mind.  Say it’s fine, you’re just tired.  I know your game.  Hide away in plain sight, but I still hear all your lies.  All your lies.  Out of your mind.  Out of your mind.

Fire For Water

This is the sound when I’m looking out.  See the cars pass below and I feel low.  But I just want to make you…And I just want to make you…  I just want to make you feel alright.  We don’t have much time; no we don’t have much time.  I just want to make you feel alright.  We don’t have much time.  This is the sound of me inside with my photographs and pet; alcohol, no cigarettes.  I give up.  I traded in the fire for water, with a side of pills, with a side of everything.  In the silence, everything, and I can’t focus on nothing.  I’m losing, I’m losing.  I just want to make you feel alright for the little time (we have).  I just want to say goodbye, and want you to see me again.  I want you to see me again…  I just want to make you feel alright for the little time we have together.  I just want to make you say good bye and want to see me again.  Will you see me again?  I just want to make you feel alright.  We don’t have much time.  I just want to say goodbye and want you to see me again.

Until The End

I try to find you through the noise and dark.  A crowd of faces, blurry from afar.  Are they smiling?  Are they bored?  Do you feel anything at all?  Stay until you’re sure.  It’s cold outside beyond the metal doors.  Our eyes meet once to let me know: you’ll hear me again or you’ll go.  Give me to the end to prove myself.  Just hold on.  Hold on.

Smile And Shiver

In front of you and in the light, there’s nowhere to hide from shadows in the room.  In between there’s silence.  I don’t know if you’re waiting to hear another note.  Can I make you smile and shiver at all?  I wanted to stand up every hair on your head.  I wanted you to take me home.  To see your room, to hear your favorite songs and try to sing along.  In between there’s silence.  I don’t know if you’re waiting to hear another note.  Can I make you smile and shiver at all?

Lost In The Night

I know you have to go, but does it have to be so soon?  She’s already asleep.  I’m talking to an empty room.  Maybe she will lift her eyes.  But not in time; I look away.  So shy, I’d rather hide my love.  So soon she will be gone and still so many words I never said.  My angel smiles and floats off to the stars.  Lost in the night.  Gone.  The air is turning cool.  She’s packing up her books and clothes.  She says that we’ll be fine, but no one ever really knows.  Maybe she will lift her eyes.  But not in time; I look away.  So shy, I’d rather hide my love.  So soon she will be gone and still so many words I never said.  My angel smiles and floats off to the stars.  Lost in the night.  Gone.

Reason To Burn

You don’t feel like I do.  You wanted it this way.  You don’t feel like I do.  You wanted it this way.  You don’t walk where I do, and you think we’re the same.  I sit like a fool, with a heart full of flames.  So come on and find me.  I may be gone.  Running to the edge.  Turning off the phone.  Come on and find me.  We’ll never know.  I’m talking to myself.  Waiting for a ghost.  Come on…  You don’t live like I do, with the past in the way.  You don’t see what I do; eyes closed it’s the same.  All this could have been, but it’s not.  Time keeps rolling on.  Like a hunter I can’t return without something to hold.  It’s the middle of winter, and you’re cut off and cold.  But this fire needs a reason to burn.  So come on and find me.  I may be gone.  Running to the edge.  Turning off the phone.  Come on and find me.  We’ll never know.  I’m talking to myself.  Waiting for a ghost.  Come and find me, and leave me for dead.  It’s all in my head.  It’s all in my head.

Dislocation Demos EP (2008)

The Castle

The sea, she calls us.  She is angry.  She grabs for us to pull us down, down to the bottom. For now we’re safe.  For now we hover.  This castle is our home, atop a flying stone.  There’s nowhere to go, and someday we will return to the sea.  Walk with me close to the edge.  Toss stones into the wind and watch them fall.  There’s nowhere to go, and someday we will return to the sea. This castle where we sleep, above the waters deep.  We pretend the day will never come, that we will never fall, we will never drown.  We close our eyes and hear the sound of the crashing waves.  We pretend the day will never come.  We pretend the day will never come.

The Lost Rider

You were the best. You were the best.  You rode further than all the rest.  But now you’re alone so far out on your own.  You don’t look back.  You don’t look back. The unknown lies ahead but on you ride.  You got lost. You got lost.  The trees all look the same in the dusk.  You could have won.  You could have won, but you chose, you chose to run.  You don’t look back.  You don’t look back. The unknown lies ahead but on you ride.  On a black horse, through the black trees, under grey skies, there’s an end to meet.  There’s a light to see.  There’s an end to meet.

Song of Love

Will you watch over me, or will you lead me to the rocks? When I’m lost at sea, the currents swept me up. You sit and sing your songs; they’re ringing in my ears.  Calling out to me. Calling out to me.  All you share is a song on a barren shore.  All you share is stone on the crashing sea.  In the distance I hear you call to me.  I’ll leave you be and let you fade, as you become no more than a dream.  Your song, it won’t touch me.  Your song, it won’t touch me.  Let it ride the stream and sink below the ice.  Perhaps someday it may return.

The Empty Mask

Come on.  You gave me your word, but now you say it’s a sad turn of events.  Time is in your hands, and I wait for you to make something of it.  Come on.  Follow the plan.  No excuses, please, and no wandering.  You lie, and I rely on you to make it right.  You should come over; we can watch the world below.  We can finish the game that we started long ago.  Under summer skies that we couldn’t see, deep in the forest next to the water, we started a fire...now what do you see?  I see faces in the fire. I see faces in the fire.  The flames wear a mask just like me; I see faces in the fire. The flames wear a mask just like me; I see faces in the fire. Come on.  You gave me your word.  I know it was years ago, but you still hide behind the fire.  You still hide behind the fire.  The flames wear a mask just like me; I see faces in the fire. 

Paper Ghosts (2008)

Don't Wake Up

Don't wake up.  It's not yet light. There's a storm outside. Black clouds in the night. Don't wake up. I wanna crawl through the mirror and not come back. I wanna crawl through the mirror and not come back.  I wanna keep my eyes closed the dream won't end - it's just lies, lies, lies.  I wanna crawl through the mirror and not come back.  I wanna crawl through the mirror and not come back.  Don't wake up.  It's not yet light. There's a storm outside. Black clouds in the night. Don't wake up.  It won't be there when I wake up.  When I wake up...

Teenage Wish

I hate my life and I hate my room. A starless night with a shaded moon.  All I want is to be there with you.  And I found hope in a pillowed dream, and now you're here even when I'm not sleeping.  I'm not sleeping.  They wanna tell me who I need.  They wanna tell me who I am.  I wanna run so far away.  Underneath a shooting sky.  Burning fire on the coldest night.  My lips twitch, your eyes are bright.  And I felt it real when you walked away. All those nights lying wide-awake.  I'm not sleeping.  I'm not sleeping.  They wanna tell me who I need.  They wanna tell me who I am.  I wanna run so far away.  So I wait for tomorrow's wish.

The Wall And Mirror

In between the wall and mirror you will find me asleep.  I ask nothing, and I receive it.  All those words I wrote are gone.  Out the side door. Down the wet streets.  Hands in pockets.  I am kneeling.  Above, your light goes out.  Above... Sitting lazy. Eyelids drooping.  Nothing tastes good.  And my memories, they sting, like losing innocence. Children, don't forget that dreams come true. They really do....Not tonight. Your light goes out.  Not tonight. Not tonight. Your light goes out.  Not tonight.  Don't leave at midnight.  Stay until the sun sets fifty years from now. Or we may look back in regret.  Nothing - I receive it. Nothing - I receive it. Nothing - I receive it. Nothing - I receive it.

Warmer Seas

Rows of rusted cars beside the harbor.  Ships have sunk below the frozen seas. But we are still here somehow. Somehow. And no one believed you.  You said that mountains come down.  And no one believed you.  You said that sky turns to ground.  But we are still here somehow.  Somehow.  Trees as bare as stone along the highway.  Maps that lead us south to warmer seas. But we are still here somehow. Somehow. And no one believed you.  You said that mountains come down.  And no one believed you.  You said that sky turns to ground.  But we are still here somehow.  Somehow.

Such A Target

Nothing good again these days.  When you ask for it, when you beg, it goes away.  Nothing good again tonight.  When we let things go, when we let it all die.  Please not tonight.  But there is such a market, and you are such a target.  There is such a market, and you are such a target.  Nothing good again to say.  Let you walk on by, let you fall away.  Nothing good again.  We find we leave it all behind.  We let it go.  There is such a market, and you are such a target. There is such a market, and you are such a target.

Red Trees

(Instrumental)

Leave Enough

A reaction. Coming clean. Is it the right way? There’s no return from this place, you said.  A reaction. Coming clean. Is it the right way? There’s no return from this place. Or have we just given up? Or have we just given up? Now, you look like an animal and it’s beautiful, but don’t try to hard. You look like an animal and it’s beautiful, but don’t try to hard.  It’s just a reaction, but we believe in love. It’s just a reaction, but we believe in love. It’s just a reaction, but we believe in love. It’s just a reaction, but we believe in love.  You look like an animal and it’s beautiful, but don’t try to hard. You look like an animal and it’s beautiful, but don’t try to hard. It’s just a reaction, but we believe in love. We are bursting and we believe in love. If it’s just a reaction, then we believe in love. We eat and drink it in, and we believe in love.  Just leave enough, just leave enough, so we can follow you back. Just leave enough, just leave enough, so we can follow you back.

My Vision

There is a mountain of fire.  A world that burns so close when you turn and our eyes meet.  It goes on and on and on.  On and on and on.  It used to be evergreen. It used to be so simple.  I don't know what I keep seeing at the side of my vision.  I can't believe it, I can't believe it, I can't believe it.  I don't know what I keep seeing at the side of my vision.  My only escape is to let go, let the fire pull me in. To turn and face the heat.  If I only had a way to drown the flames.  It it were only so simple. I don't know what I keep seeing at the side of my vision.  I can't believe it, I can't believe it, I can't believe it.  I don't know what I keep seeing at the side of my vision.

Escape

Feeling like an old man in an old town. I’m running out of places to hide. The trees that we used to climb have come down. The flowers are all pushed aside.  Walk through the shade of the concrete maze. Stare at the screen til it hurts my eyes. Leave after five, walk through the crowds. Sit in the house with the shades drawn down. Walking down the city block. I don’t know where I’ll end up. I used to think I was free, but now I feel lost.  You are my escape. You are my surprise. Let’s get out of here while there’s still time.  You are my escape. You are my surprise. Let’s get out of here while there’s still time.

Here We Are

Here we are and you know everything into ash and dust.  We're here, we are growing apart. Left alone, and I'm freezing.  Say goodnight for the last time.  Here we are, as we were before.  Spread my arms and I scream.  It's torture, so open.  That little empty pocket in the soul, screaming goodbye.  Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye.

FALSE COLORS CD (2007)

Caloris Basin

I’m waiting...

Clearing House

I call you back. I call you back. Stand before me with your hand bleed; with your eye cloud and your self doubt. I will push you on and on. I will push you on and on.

Emergency

Further down we go. We’re judged before we’re even spoken to and we let it happen. Emergency. Emergency. You won’t let me out of the box you put me in. Emergency. Emergency. From the first look you thought I was trouble and now I am. Take the time to try to ask a simple question. We find we’re all too busy. Later we fight about whose really listening.  Who’s really listening? Emergency. Emergency. You won’t let me out of the box you put me in. Emergency. Emergency. From the first look you thought I was trouble and now I am. Pass the time inside.  You’re scared of all the colors and the lights.

Leave it to the children to make it right. To make it happen.  To make it happen. Emergency. Emergency. You won’t let me out of the box you put me in. Emergency. Emergency. From the first look you thought I was trouble and now I am.

Open

Fell down a well when I was just a little boy. It made me the man that I am today.  It’s all circumstance it seems.  But I can’t write fast enough to teach you anything.  And only when I write am I the same man.  Otherwise I’m just the same as everyone, and that’s a crime.  The same as everyone...that’s a crime.  We live in a dirty basement.  We watch dirty movies.  We spend our nights alone.  When they call you by your last name, is anyone your friend?  Does anyone know you?  Why do you apologize?  I won’t apologize.  You have nothing to say, so you say you’re sorry.  You say you’re sorry.  It’s a crime. It’s a crime. It’s a crime. We live in a dirty basement.  We watch dirty movies.  We spend our nights alone.  Alone and open.  Don’t give up, don't give up, don't give up...

False Colors

Oh you say you feel nameless.  Its eyes are fixed. It swims through me. Oh you say you feel nameless. The revolution is upon us.  It swims through me. How can you doubt a friend? Cold man.  How can you doubt a friend?  Cold man.

The Ocean Floor

I was better.  Then I kissed you in a dream and lost myself.  It all comes down.  I was stronger. Then I took your hand and let it go. It all comes down.  Underwater.  Underwater we can live together.  I was able to see straight again.  Then the sun came.  It all comes down. I was beginning to understand the echoes in my head. It all comes down.  Underwater. Underwater we can live together. Underwater. Underwater we can live together again.

Black Ring

Moral-less. Gorgeous. Laughing. Outside of consciousness.  Consume me.  Make me forget the world outside you is emptiness.  More or less gorgeous. Laughing. Outside of consciousness.  Consume me.  Make me forget the world outside you is emptiness.  Am I sitting on top of the world, or looking up from a grate?  Should we let the newness grow, or snip it off with hate? I don’t fit in between.

Screens

I have a fear that these hands are no mine.  That these fingers are lies.  That these nails are plastic.  I have a fear that when I die, I’ll be born again inside of someone that I loved.  I have a sense that all I see comes through someone else’s eyes.  These eyes are shadows.  And in truth I am blind.  But the screens show me what it’s like to be alive.  Everything comes together and flows like water.  I have a fear that these hands are no mine.  That these fingers are lies.  That these nails are plastic. These eyes are shadows.  And in truth I am blind.  But the screens show me what it’s like to be alive.  Everything comes together and flows like water. Every face is an angel in disguise. Everyone loves you when you’re like them. Everything points at a sign that says be what you are.  I would...if I was like them.

Control

I know I’ve said some things about living here that I don’t mean. But you make it hard for love to stay when you’re so quick to throw it away.  This is my home.  You don’t own what is mine.  We put you there to guide and not to control.

Young And Old

I just need to get out. I’ve been stuck here for too long.  If we let this go on, will it end up all wrong? Are we doing this for nothing? Is the bottom dropping out?  What do you think? Well I don’t care to talk about it now.  I see eyes.  I see fire. I collapse in the sound. The young ones can figure out what the old ones can only doubt. I just need to get out. I’ve been stuck here for too long. I’ll bribe my way across the river and see you. I see eyes.  I see fire. I collapse in the sound. The young ones can figure out what the old ones can only doubt.

Motion Action

Onward we move, though every dream hurts more than the last. And onward we sail though memories stamped upon and stamped out. Just to move. To keep hold. Through pounding rain. Through crashing waves.

EXPLAIN ANYMORE EP (2004)

Explain anymore

We were just talking, we were just talking; don't let it fool you by the way that she looks at me.  We were just walking, we were just walking; don't let it fool you by the way that she touches me.

And I don't have to explain anymore.

To The Head

The city is burning in white flame, open the door I'm alive but in a body that has died. Black spirit, white face in a cloud of night

The brilliance of new is the bullet to the head. And it's all I ever wanted, and it's all I ever wanted

Voice on the screen is chemically-enhanced, not needed and cursed, bullet means to last. Never rotten, accidents don't fade, and the memory grows everyday

The brilliance of new is the bullet to the head. And it's all I ever wanted, and it's all I ever wanted...

Something In Time

You have the ability to regret like no one I've ever met, like nothing I've ever seen, I used to think you were fragile; but that doesn't mean I'm impressed, on most nights I couldn't care less; when you're down and out you become anyone at all

And all your resolutions (the past is a cellar). And all of your confusions (the past is a cellar) 

You have the ability to regret like no one I've ever met, like nothing I've ever seen before...

And all your resolutions (the past is a cellar). And all of your confusions (the past is a cellar) 

Your story's not a line, it's a trail of broken parts, it's a string of broken hearts, and it will mean something in time.

Permanent Daylight EP (2004)

Scars and Separation

Don't pretend you see yourself changing static into sound.  There's no change without scars and separation. 

It's fear that keeps us the same. (x4)

If you're ready to listen, I'll light the candles, you light the wick's end.  If you're ready to listen, just tune out the dial and smash what you know into pieces. (x2)

It's fear that keeps us the same. (x2)  It's all in your head.  It's all in your head.  There's nowhere to fall, it's all inside your head.

Waiting For Light

Why do you sit down?  You won't find her on the ground.  Why do you keep down?  There's no silence in her sound.  She waits like a passenger when the station's been closed down.  So why do you sit down when she wants you to stand up?  Stand up.

I stepped into the room and fell on the bed.  You were sleeping on a chair.  Watching the night fall overhead.  The night fell hard to the ground. 

What if you're sleeping below?  You were waiting for my light to come on, but you waited too long (x2).  So let go.

What if you're sleeping below?  You were waiting for my light to come on, but you waited too long (x2).  So let go, let go.

Sold Short

I thought you moved too fast for things like letting go.  When your head's on straight you look so good.  I always knew I'd never say the right words, with your bags in your hands and your eyes on the door, with my back to your face as my head hits the floor.

But now I'm not selling myself short. (x2)

You keep talking around it.  You keep laughing about it.  You walk out the door for the last time, but then you come back around again.

You lost me, you lost me again. (x4)

I'm not selling myself, I'm not selling myself, I'm not selling myself short.

Becoming A Ghost

Her eyes like embers, I want to be inside of them, I want to be inside of them, I want to be them.   Her lips like lessons I want to learn and I want to be inside of them; I want to learn and I want to be inside of them...

All to live inside her shell.  I wish for it.  I don't want to be myself.  To be somebody else.

I wish for it.

Her face like faith I want to find, I want to be inside of it.  Her eyes like embers, I want to touch them, I want to be inside I want to be it.

All alone I become a ghost inside you.

(All lyrics: Copyright Brian Buta 2002-2009)